The FISHERS Magazine (Issue 224)
Living for Jesus
I was born into a Christian family and I would say that it was rather easy and convenient for me to be immersed in a spiritual environment since my parents are devoted Christians who brought all their three children to church every week. It really did not bother me personally whether I was a Christian or belonged to another religion altogether.
When I was in Primary Four, during a church camp in Singapore, I heard a message concerning the brevity of human life which was like a vapour that disappeared quickly. We were reminded that we could just die at any moment. Though I was too young to think about death, I did ask myself this question, “Where would I be after death?”
The speaker continued to explain the Gospel to us. He told us that we were all sinners destined for Hell. But Jesus Christ, the Son of God, had died on the cross for our sins. He showed us from the Bible that, “For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God” (Eph 2:8). We need to repent of our sins and receive Him as our Saviour. I was not sure how that message affected the rest of the chilldren, but it hit me real hard. I realised that at any point of time, I could die and that I would regret not having acknowledged Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. So that very day, a lady from my church together with my mom guided me in the sinner’s prayer and from then on I became more serious about my faith.
My first struggle with the faith was when I was in Secondary Two. I was hit with shingles, an adult form of chicken pox, which caused me much pain and suffering. I thought that I was just “unlucky” to have gotten this disease and then I kept asking my parents, “Why me? Why not someone else?” My parents explained to me that God is sovereign, He has a plan for everything and we just had to honour Him as Job in the Bible did. He went through tremendous sufferings and yet he was able to thank God for them, because “Whatever the LORD pleases, He does, in heaven and in earth, in the seas and in all deeps” (Ps 135:6).
As years went by, I took my faith for granted thinking that I had already acknowledged Jesus as my Saviour and my salvation was assured. However, I did not behave like a Christian at all. My faith started to go on the decline and deteriorated rapidly as soon as I enlisted for National Service in the Singapore Army. I was living like a non-Christian, spouting foul words and diving into the world’s pleasures. I stopped going to church at one point of time as I felt that it made no difference whether I went to church or not. After I finished serving my country, I went back to join the workforce while waiting to further my studies at The Master’s University in California, USA.
At some point, I was convinced by my elder brother to go back to church and I tried to be active in church again. I made a point to do so but without much zeal. I thank God for giving me the chance to further my studies in a Christian university where He built up my faith again. After entering The Master's University, I rededicated my life to Christ during my freshman year because it was so refreshing to know that He is in control of my life. I know that every event that happened in my life was planned by God and there was a reason behind it. I not only wanted to declare my love for Christ but also to affirm my faith and conviction in Him publicly by going through water baptism on September 18th, 2016. I would like to testify that because Jesus died for my sins, I am no longer separated from God. I now live in close union with him.
Even though I am saved, I still struggle with sin. Whenever I am confronted by temptations I would ask myself, “What would Jesus have done if He were in my position? Or would it please the Lord if I do certain things?” As a believer, I know that I have to be a living testimony for Jesus Christ through my actions and words. I pray that my life will bring glory to His Name and help others to come to know Christ.